It’s been too long since I last posted something..WAY TOO LONGGGG
Been in this new company for more than 7 months..
Yet complications occur again and again..
Our Techxpo Show Manager tendered his resignation and now..with a little experience, I am left to do this...can i manage it???
I cant really imagine how things would turn out...i am so inexperienced..no confident =(
Everything was so scary...and just turned out so sudden....
On the other side, Mum wants me to go back to help her as she is intending to expand her business and she wants to locate me to one of the new branch to manage the shop...i am not superman..but i dont tink I’m capable of all this..
no experience..no confident....
all i can do it try my best...what to do?
wana post something...useful and meaningdul...but i guess today was a not as colorful, not as plain...neither one...
but haiz.................. there's always a thing that cannot be resolved...why?????
2 yrs ago like that liaw...now new problem again....
Make decision based on ur conclusion, not mine. ='(
part A says...do wat u want to do..dont have to care so much
part B says..u have to tink for others too..u cant jus do wat u wan...after all it's ur own business in the future..
Part A says..why u so busybody? nobody asked u to do anything..dont be so one sided and making everyone spend money unwillingly
Part A says...it's fun to disturb u..
PArt A says..let's get back to the old life..
[ dedicated to me, myself and irene ]
u left early this morning..all i can do is stay back and count down..
count down when u'll be back..
was so blur today that i forgot to bring my wallet out..
ahhhhhh...i miss my bf =(((
where does it come from?
i'm feeling so complicated..
perhaps i'm afraid of letting go..i'm afraid that i dint treasure them much..
but i jus dono how to react..
i scared that i'll lost them one day...and make myself regret for not cherish my time with them..
jus now dad came down jus to passed me pocket money..
i feel so...speechless..
he said he's going to pass me stuff then i thought he need to leave anything with me or wat..
then he passed me money..then i was like..
"dad i got enuf..u use it urself ya..i got enuf"
then he said "it's ok u jus take"
then he quickly left with uncle..rushing back to jb
i feel very bad..like..i shouldn't take his money...i know he wont have enuf to use for himself..but he jus came down to pass it to me..
besides i'm working part itme now also..
hai..i feel so bad myself...
he's in jb alone..but then i never get to go there and look for him for meal even once..
i think i'm really an unfilial daughter =(
at noon i called my aunt..jiu niang..she doesnt sound so good also..i feel so sad..she's the mum of my late cuz who passed away recently..
hai............i'm so useless =((((
i dono wat to do...i shall look for a job soon and then earn money and give them...
i'm so useless..or perhaps i shud make calls as frequent as possible..
in the past i seldom call my parents....i'm so bad........... hai
I HATE MYSELF.... I HATE MY SELFISHNESS... I HATE THIS FEELING...THIS COMPLICATED FEELING =(((
hate hate life...
everyone around me quarreling..
having argument everyday..sien myself also
i hate everything now..
i jus wan to be alone..
let me go...
i googled for the meaning of life..and i get this from wikipedia..
The meaning of life constitutes a philosophical question concerning the purpose and significance of human existence. This concept can be expressed through a variety of related questions, such as Why are we here?, What's life all about? and What is the meaning of it all? It has been the subject of much philosophical, scientific, and theological speculation throughout history. There have been a large number of answers to these questions from many different cultural and ideological backgrounds. Albert Camus observed, we humans are creatures who spend our lives trying to convince ourselves that our existence is not absurd.
The meaning of life is deeply mixed with the philosophical and religious conceptions of existence, consciousness, and happiness, and touches on many other issues, such as symbolic meaning, ontology, value, purpose, ethics, good and evil, free will, conceptions of God, the existence of God, the soul and the afterlife. Scientific contributions are more indirect; by describing the empiricalfacts about the universe, science provides some context and sets parameters for conversations on related topics. An alternative, human-centric, and not a cosmic/religious approach is the question "What is the meaning of my life?" The value of the question pertaining to the purpose of life may be considered to be coincidal with the achievement of ultimate reality, if that is believed by one to exist.
Although we only met during cny but to me, he used to be someone who really is a nice 'big brother'.
When i was young and often went back Ipoh for vacation, he used to bring me around with his motorbike.
And i enjoyed riding in motorbike a lot..
There was once after the ride, i burnt my leg when i accidentally placed it near the pipe where the gas heat is released..forgot wat the exact word is..and i was so slow to react to the burnt..
So happY anD saD yeSterday~!
Happy cos my Beloved porkchops and joyceY moYcey anD mW n gREg celebrateD my birThday with ME!!!
Sad..cos Hm..doNo why..this kind of feeling..of saying bye bye to 21..kinda makes me sad =.=
Met kay and shaN in cineleisure in the late morning.
while we were wondering wher to go..shan suggested to go kboX! it would be weiRd if i said "no" =P
then we took lift to level 8..then they 2 wanted to go toilet make "big and small" businesses..
so toilet we went..when suddenly two familiar faces popped up..
Joo and JoyceY..hahahah and Joo said something like..."bei cai chuan le" (being exposed)
then i smell something fishy in the toilet ( i noe this sounds wrong..)haha
then after the 'businesses' they led me to the room 30 ( if i'm not wrong ) and i saw greg n mw inside..
SURPRISED! no they dint say that =P hahaha (or..did they?LOL)
Aiyaaa but horr..i really really happy lor..i miss singing kbox and they brought me to kbox!!!! hahaHAHA
and i sang and laughed til my throat become 'sandy' (sha ya) LOL
we took lots of pix using jooo's polaroid and camera and kay's one as well..haha so fun!!!!
towards the end of the kboX session..they surprised me again with caKE!!
i seriously never think of it! hahaha
Then later oN..gift timE aftEr cake timE!! hahaha so hAAPPpyyyy =D
Really feel so happy =D
they surprised me again and again!! hahah i love surpriseS =D
they really 'you xing' lor..so happy to have them as my frens..
at night i went out with my sis and bro-in-law to pasir panjang and had our crab meat meaL~ yumyum
we had: black pepper crab, chilli crab, hokkien mee, bbq chicken wings, and fried little squids, teh peng, teh tarik and lime juice..
when i got home and bathed..
i read the card the 'gang' wrote for me jus now..saw the gift they got for me..
my heart melts..awww...
really doNo how to describe this kind of feeling..
i'm really happy to be surrounded by them..i'm really glad to know them..
but somehow..i feel that..in the future these things may not happen again...
our lives will change..
we'll all lead different life..
we'll meet different people..
i feel that..we wont have so much opportunities together..when we all will be busy with our own things..
i jus wana make this moment stops...at least..in my memory =)
no one could describe this feeling of mine..
i'm just too happy and comfortable with the status quo..
SO HAPPY AND LOVING THE M11 BUDDIES~!! =D
received lots of unexpected greeting msgs and calls from old frens...awww...really miss them...
my beloved boyfren surprised me and celebrated with me earlier despite him being so stress rushing for projects..so sweet =)
and family too..they give me food..love..and things that i want...i couldn't ask for more..
why am i so emo at this hour? LOL
i love myself..and i love my family..and i love my frens..
thus i hope everyone around me will stay happy and healthy always~ yay~ ^_^
preTty preTty piX takeN by Jooo's polaroiD~ *thanKS jojojojojojo =D*
My 22nd Birthday at Kbox =D
p/s: i know the pix are small..but i had hard time changing the size..stil not very good in it =P
will upload in fb soon hehe =)
This is the contact lens i bought a month ago..and thanks to Linda babeh cos she taught me how to wear contact lens for the first time..i had a hard time putting in the lenses into my eyes...my eyes cried LOL but stil i managed to put it in..wakakaka
The classmates celebrated ShanShine's 21st at Xin WAng marina square. HAha surprise after surprise for her =) after that me, kerren, josephine, joyce, mw and favian went to Kbox while the rest went home. I really need to singggg cos i missed singing a lot..